Earlier this year, Maine's legislature passed a bill legalizing gay marriage. The governor of Maine signed it. But it hadn't yet taken effect -- whether it would or not depended on how the state's voters voted on it come election day.
By a 53-47 vote, the gay marriage law was rejected by the people of Maine. Maine was the thirty-first state to bring the gay marriage issue to a popular vote. And for the thirty-first time, it was rejected by a majority of voters.
I have mixed feelings about this. For one thing, I'm gay. I've read a lot of accounts of gay couples in Maine who were deeply upset, and rightfully so, about how the vote turned out. But what surprised me, in reading many of these accounts, was the confusion expressed by these couples. What seemed to them to be a simple matter of giving homosexual couples the same benefits and protections heterosexual couples enjoyed, since the only main difference here is the sexual orientations -- and believe me, I think the matter really ought to be that simple, and every couple should be able to marry and enjoy the same benefits and protections -- looked like an almost existential threat to many of those who voted against gay marriage, and they couldn't understand why.
Well, I can understand why people would do that. Because I'm not a long-time gay activist with a law degree who's spent too much time living in D.C. and fixates on gay marriage, gay marriage, gay marriage above all other LGBT issues combined, convinced that if you repeat the same talking points over and over and over again, you'll win the fuckin' argument -- as if polling places are the same as courtrooms. Yeah, bullshit. What I am is a gay guy who's spent most of his life trying to hide from the fact that he's gay when there was never any reason to because there is nothing wrong with being gay.
I know how homophobes think, folks. I used to be one. Yes, it's possible to be gay and homophobic at the same time.
Part of the problem is basic ignorance on the homophobes' part. It's often said that everyone knows at least one person who is gay. And that's true. But not everyone is aware that they know any gay people because the gays they know are too wary of revealing their homosexuality to others. Can't say I blame them -- I have that problem myself. And that's another part of the problem -- many of us just aren't willing to risk coming out of the closet, for whatever reasons. I have come out to a limited degree. It's not easy to go the whole hog -- and sometimes, it's all but suicidal. (Ask any homosexual serving in the American military.)
Homophobes are, by definition, fearful of homosexuals. I won't get into how much of their homophobia is based on their own limited awareness of their own homosexual tendencies -- that's a topic for a later post. They think we're out to recruit and molest children. We're not -- unless you happen to be a Roman Catholic priest. They think we all screw each other without protection and share needles when we shoot up. Some do -- and since we've had thirty years to study and understand HIV and AIDS, this sort of reckless behavior is indefensible, so I'll cut the homophobes some slack there. But when they say we want to legalize bestiality...
Listen. I don't know of a single gay group who wants to legalize bestiality. I don't. And in case anyone's forgotten, I'm into the furry fandom. This is Mister Queerboy Furry talking here. Okay? I love animals to no end. I just don't screw any of them -- though I tend to wonder about the desires of those homophobes who think I do screw animals.
Anyway... our society has grown more accepting of homosexuals during my lifetime, and that's fantastic. Furthermore, I, for one, am especially happy with this new generation young enough to be my sons and daughters for being the first to see, without qualifications, that we only differ from straight people when it comes to sexual orientation. These kids are proof positive that gay marriage across all America is inevitable -- I just don't know how long it'll take.
So when I look at what went down in Maine Tuesday, I'm disappointed, but I don't feel totally hopeless. I think... our time is coming. I think that it just can't be rushed. I think that we're all human, we're all hurt, we're all broken, and...
I dunno... unlike some hurt and broken humans I could name, I'm willing to wait for my time to come. Since it looks like no matter how much one agitates, rants, raves, blogs, marches, or sulks, my time ain't gonna come any sooner. Ask black people how rushing things worked out for them. Ask women the same.
And then ask them if racism and sexism are dead. That ought to be interesting...

